I spent close to half of today on the phone, with child support offices. Talk about making the blood pressure rise! I am so utterly confused, not to mention disgusted at this "system." Without going into too much detail, (because I don't want to "re-visit" my anger) but this has been an ongoing process since September of last year. Yet for as frustrated as I am...and for as much as I am amazed at how "pathetic" the man is that I am fighting on this, I am so incredibly grateful to have my son!!!
My fears and frustrations on this matter are unending. And once I reached the breaking point today in speaking with "supervisors" ...I called my mama. (poor woman!) After my ranting and apology to her for "venting" I raised the question, "What if ...?"
And she said...
..."Then you deal with that when it happens."
Huh...she is one smart lady! I am so thankful that I have such a strong role model in my mother.
It's funny how one day we can posses such a positive attitude and the next day feel as though our world is crashing down all around us.
It's funny how we can recite Scripture like Matthew 11:28 or Matthew 6:34 over and over again, completely recognizing its truth, and the next minute scream, "God, why are you making me go through this? Can you not SEE how unfair all of this is?!"
He says, "Give this to Me..." So why do we insist on holding on to it?
I really needed my mom today, and I'm glad she pulled through to give me her advice...
It's true...moms make everything better. Even at 36!
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