Sunday!

I love Sundays...I really, REALLY do!!! When my head hit the pillow last night I was extremely doubtful that I was even going to be able to function this morning after enduring one of the worst migraines for the entire day yesterday. (note: I LOVE Sundays...HATE migraines!)

Sundays are amazing. I am settled in what I believe to be one of the most incredible churches in the country. Does that sound bad? I'm sure there are an abundance of great churches...that's why I said "one of the most!" Even though I rarely get the chance to "mingle" with anyone over the age of...TWO, occasionally someone older will drop in, or pass me in the hall with a simple "hello" and more often than not, a big hug. There was a time in which I was uncomfortable with that but not anymore...

So today was a day that I got a few hugs, and a small amount of interaction with "big people."

I'm excited at the possibility that I may head out on a road/photography trip with my friend Rebecca on Saturday (it just so happens her schedule is clear that day) so I suggested we cruise around and see what we can find. No real destination...and we may even try to snag a few "models" for the trip. Suggestions anyone? I have so much respect for her photography, she does amazing work and if anyone needs one...she's your gal! :)

Anyway...after church I came home to play with Nick for a while. He bought a frisbee last week and I promised him I'd play. Our courtyard has ten (pretty tall) trees, five on each end. It was inevitable that the frisbee would land in one at least once. So here we stood...looking up at the frisbee hanging from a branch approximately 15 feet off the ground. After attempting to throw sticks at it, I decided to "scale" the trunk up to the branches. After shaking the branch for about 5 minutes it finally fell to he ground. At the time, I felt like I was 12 again. Now...I feel like I'm 50. My butt and legs are sore and my back hurts. But as far as my son knows...he's got a pretty amazing mom! :)

So...I've also been really excited to filter through some of my "why" questions.

As I pondered where these questions were going to take me, the one thing that continually came to my mind this week was this:

...There are many things I simply can not control in life. Truthfully, there is nothing I can control in life. Whether this is in regards to parenting, finding a companion or encountering unpleasant people. Think about it...there is already a plan set in motion, for all of us. We can interfere with those plans by taking on our own "personal" agendas, but how often do we benefit from doing so?

So ultimately...what can we do?

...The only thing we can (or rather should) be concerned with, is how we choose to react to the "hands we are dealt." Sounds so simple...but why does it seem to be so hard?

...Because we are human.

There is someone I know and encounter quite often, that I am convinced lies. Little lies, big lies...lies! And it is so stinking frustrating! Seriously...I have had dreams that I confront this person...violently. It's not pretty. I wake up, and I am even more angry with this person than I am in "real life." I don't enjoy having these dreams which is the reason I partially included the situation in my initial "why" blog. I want to be able to work through my feelings about this person and I figured this is a great way to start.

And then there are the "relationship" whys. Relationships as a whole. Family, friends, dating..."relationships." I'm finding that wrestling with those are a little more difficult. And personal. It is my intention to be as honest as I can be when writing about them. I know that there are some people who fit into that category that actually read this blog, and some do not. This is my disclaimer: I am trying to work through some things that I know I need to work on. It's nothing personal against anyone. It's all about my insecurities, my fears, my attitude toward some things. Things that I need to work on... :)

Ok...I'm going to bring this thing to a close, because...well because I'm getting a little sleepy and I need to finish Mario Party 8 with my kid. :)

Speaking of my kid...that was another incredible blessing this week. I received a facebook message from a youth group leader asking me if Nick had mentioned anything to me about houseboat camp. (he hadn't) Apparently, they are taking a group of kids on a four day trip to Lake Shasta this month. I asked Nick why he hadn't mentioned it to me and if he was interested in going. ...he wanted to go, but didn't ask because he thought it was too much money. (everyone say "aw") Ends up that there is scholarship money available and there are youth leaders (as well as his pastor) that really want Nick to go...so, my son is going to camp in a few weeks!