Aside from work, the little hamster in my brain has been running around his wheel in overdrive, and truthfully I wish he'd just stop! Analyzing, re-analyzing, worrying, anticipating, questioning. Yes...I feared I was reaching the point in which I could "potentially" break down. This was when I realized that it wasn't my "subconscious" talking to me this week, but rather Someone bigger.
The first thing that entered my thoughts was something I had written in my little "25 Random Things About Me" last week.
"I try to remind myself that no matter how bad I think things may be...somewhere there is someone who would feel differently if placed in my shoes."
This is something I firmly believe in...but must remind myself of constantly!
I have a friend...(I have a couple of friends but there is one in particular) that has been on my mind. She and her husband are presently playing the "waiting" game in regards to her husband's health. They are Christians and their faith is strong, yet I can't imagine the days coming and going without any "solid" answers. Please pray for them...
I have another friend who I had the opportunity to spend the day with last weekend. We both enjoy photography and in a conversation that day I had mentioned how important I feel pictures are...because they capture memories. And then she said something that I hope I never forget. She shared with me the fact that yes, "capturing" those moments on film is great to do, however it's more important to "live" in those moments while they are happening.
Now...do you want to know what I read this week?
"We find it easier to analyze what happened in the past and to imagine what might happen in the future than to show up fully for the present."
"A common mistake is to base our thoughts on yesterday's circumstances, not realizing that those circumstances are simply the reflection of thoughts we're now free to change."
"As long as you keep thinking in limited terms, disbelieving in the possibility of infinite possibility in your life, then you will never experience the miracles God has in store for you."
"A miracle occurs when we ask God to intervene between our past and future, cancel out all fear, and release us to new beginnings. A God who will part the seas and raise the dead has no difficulty solving your problems. His is a radical power to repair and restore."
"Every point in life's journey is inherently preparing us for our future in ways that the rational mind cannot possibly comprehend."
"Regardless of where we're going tomorrow, it's important to bless where we are and enjoy the fruits of today."
"Regardless of where we're going tomorrow, it's important to bless where we are and enjoy the fruits of today."
And so I'm wrestling with trying to learn (and accept) that every moment is a miracle. I say "wrestling" because it sounds so simple...it sounds so wonderful, yet I feel as though we've been "taught" to think and plan ahead, which in turn causes me to worry, to question, to analyze.
If I could...I would spend every free moment I had sitting in the rocking chair at church holding a child. (my child if he'd let me...or if he wouldn't crush me!) I have discovered that to be one of the most serene places. To snuggle with a little one...to calm and comfort them when they see mom or dad walking away...to have them smile and giggle once you've gained their trust. Living in those moments...and thanking God for blessing me with them.
...Miracles...
Watching my baby brother on stage. How is this a miracle? I'm glad you asked. As I was crouched down taking pictures at his show last night, it dawned on me. First of all, I am so incredibly proud that he has such a "dream" and that he's pursuing it. Not only pursuing it, but with a passion. I am in awe every time I see him perform. My mom was 39 when she had him. The very first doctor visit upon discovering she was pregnant, the doctor advised her that "because of her age" she may want to consider terminating the pregnancy. (Note:this was not our primary family doctor but some other clown who happened to step in on the appointment) Thankfully my parents didn't heed to his "advice".
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Great thought...what book where you reading?
"The Gift of Change" by Marianne Williamson. I've been on and off with it for a while now. Good?
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